Prom

Prom is supposed to be a fun time with no worries but no not when you are hosting it. I am hosting and it sucks! Nobody tried to help me and when they didn't help me and when I made the plans I was told I made the wrong plans. Then they invite people that I specifically said I didn't want them there. Since they were the one who invited this girl I told my friend she had to be the one who tells her she isn't invited to sleepover, but my friend keeps saying she doesn't want to. You invited her she's your responsibility! Anyway so prom happened yesterday my dress looked gorgeous, but as we left the restaurant we ate at my zipper busted open so we made an emergency run to my friends house where we pinned it shut. We went to prom where I got to see basically all the guys I used to have "things" with there with their dates while I was all alone. When mine and my friends jam "Talk Dirty" came on one of my best girlfriends and I danced "dirty", so all the boys that didn't ask me missed out on seeing that. I got asked to slow dance by the guy who tried to ask me to homecoming this year the day after the guy I was dating at the time asked me, and we literally hadn't talked since he asked me, so that was kinda awkward. The hypnotist we had at post prom was AMAZING. And that's a brief synopsis of my prom!
Xoxo Megan

Me in the car before prom

My dress & hair

All the girls

Annoying things boys do

Let's talk about annoying things boys do

1. They sag their mother fucking pants! like what is that!!!!!! YOU AIN'T NO THUG

2. They complain about their fast metabolism in front of girls without one. If you're gonna do that I will punch you. Just shut up now.

3. They do that thing where they talk to you once and they say everything right so you fall like instantly for some reason! Like what? Teach me your mind tricks!

4. They say gross things all the time!!!! Stooppppppp I don't care about the perverted things you think about

5. They are always violent for no reason. Whaaaaa?

6. They get their man period and won't admit they are being pissy!

7. They ignore you around their friends thinking they look cool. News Flash you look like a douche

8. They just stop talking to you out of the blue right after calling you cute and shit. Assholes

9. They never think of cute shit to do on their own they always need help

10. Lastly they belch. Like I burp but they take it to another level of nasty.

Flirting

So flirting is a tricky thing, it's fun but at the same time it's awful! Sometimes you don't know if the other person is flirting back and that's so annoying! Some people such as my self are romantically challenged at don't know if a human is flirting. If you are flirting with me and you think I'm flirting with you (it's easy to tell I use a lot of winky smiley faces and emojis) compliment me by telling me I'm pretty that's easier to know if you are interested not saying "you're really fun to talk to" that bullshit is told to everyone that could mean you want me or it could mean let's be friends. It's too confusing!! I can't handle how unpredictable boys are! One day they like you the next there's a new girl who is better than you. At the same time it's hard enough to find someone who doesn't friendzone me... Haha but in all honesty the boys in my school aren't exactly prime prospects... And the ones that could be, like this adorable guy in my english class, are all friends with the people I don't like so I don't really talk to them... He's so cute though haha I wish i did talk to him... Oh well that will never happen.. That's my rant on flirting. I hate boys but I love boys...
Xoxo Megan

Sleepovers!!!

I'm sleeping over at my best friends house tonight and I'm so fucking pumped because my friends and I haven't had a sleepover in forever! If you have ever wondered what girls do at a sleepover I'm about to fill you in. We laze around and watch movies eating more food than you probably thought was humanly possible because fuck it we'll eat what we want we're all single aint got nobody to impress regularly! We wear sweats and our hair is messy, we usually don't have make up on, and we just laugh and have fun. We created a vine account you should all follow called white girls vine. It's super funny. We've decided to call Fridays that we hang out Fat Fridays :)

Xoxo Megan

Blabbering

Guys I have a problem I have this dream of a perfect guy that I can't seem to get out of my head and it's not like my what I want in a guy or the crush because I don't really have a crush anymore. I have this picture of a guy in my head but I can't really see his face he has dark dark hair and he is tall and he wears plaid with a superhero t-shirt underneath, jeans and converse. And he makes me laugh and feel safe and our hands just fit together perfectly. It's all I can think about because like I don't feel desperate like I want to be single (or at least I don't want to rush into something with the wrong guy) but I just can't get this shit out of my head! I want him to exist right now I want him to be here and I want to like want to get all dressed up for him and have him just be like wow, but at the same time when I'm scrubbing it I want him to be like "Hey sexy;)". This is what I want I want a guy that always makes me feel special but is my best friend. But I don't think he exists in my life right now... And that makes me really sad because I feel like he just should like I can picture him for the most part but other than that he's just in my imagination...
Xoxo Megan

Winter Break

So winter break is just around the corner I only have to make it to friday and then I'm done! Unfortunately I have finals after break so I get to study all break and feel stressed weeeeeee! How about no. I have so many test and quizzes this week its unreal I've already taken 2 and I have a test in Algebra on Friday and a Physics quiz! why are my teachers trying to kill me!? My algebra teacher has given so much homework and when I was talking to this guy this is what he said about my teacher "She is trying to kill us she tests our endurance by this thing she calls "homework" then weeds out the failures. Next she makes the victors compete in the warfare of "finals" only one shall pass" Haha best thing ever! I almost died when he sent that to me. Well school still sucks!
Xoxo Megan

Clothes at School

So I've picked up a few things in high school especially with how people dress, and I'd like to tell you all about it. We have the girls who wear super cute nice clothes basically everyday they are either super self conscious and that's just how they feel comfortable orrrrr they are a total stuck up snob and you can usually tell like the first few days you see them. There are people who wear sweats everyday and those people are either total slackers or they are super cool and just don't give a fuck about how they dress. There are people like me who wear a hoodie with basically everything because they put comfort first. Then you have the jocks who are super proud of the fact that they are jocks and they wear some sort of sports apparel everyday like damn wear a different shirt man (but if its a boy it's kinda cute, depends on personality). Lastly the people who dress crazy and I do mean crazy there is a girl at my school with hair longer than mine who spikes it into a mohawk. That's really all I have to say.
Xoxo Megan

My Sister

So I have a sister only one and I'm pretty sure she thinks that she is the absolute center of the god forsaken universe. I love her I do but goddamn I cannot stand her! She is the biggest stereotype she's blonde, blue eyed, a sorority girl, a cheerleader. I can't stand it I'm nothing like her. Well the other day she backhanded me because I misted her with water my parents said nothing. It hurt like a son of a bitch and all I've wanted to do since is punch her in the face. If she was in my grade I would be no where near her ever. But she's my sister so I have to love her... I'm real sick of her "you're weird because you don't like to go out and be social" shit. I don't like to go out because of the huge amount of anxiety I have... Just because I'm not the same as you does not mean I am wrong. Fuck you if you think anyone is wrong because they are different. Well that's all for this time folks.
Xoxo Megan

Self Image and Self Harm

So as most of you know if you have read my previous posts that I used to self harm. It's in my past but I don't exactly love talking about it, it was a really hard time for me... If you currently self harm I want you to know that even if you think no one cares about you that I do and that you can email me if you need someone to talk to email me at
justyouraverageteengirl522@gmail.com
  (As I'm writing this very serious post I hear my Dad in the other room fart and tell my dog "ohhh heheh yes Daisy dats a fart, dats a real fart" I can't handle my family) Anyway self harm is not something to be taken lightly there are many girls at my school who self harm for attention and that makes me really upset being someone who did it because you feel like you need to feel something because you literally just feel empty like nothing matters and all you want to do is sleep. I have a very poor self image I don't think of myself as beautiful and I never have but I tell myself I'm beautiful and it sort of helps. I understand that it's difficult to see yourself as attractive but you are and someone is out there is looking for exactly what you have to offer. Please email me if you ever want to talk.
Xoxo Megan

Drama

So let's talk some old drama of mine drama I don't have to really deal with but still drama. She was extremely selfish and all she seemed to care about was having a boyfriend. The beginning of sophomore year my friend Liz and her boyfriend had been broken up for a little while and they were friends but not really anyway, she claimed to be Liz's best friend was flirting with Liz's boyfriend like wtf girl code rule #1 the ex is always off limits!!! DUH! Then a few months later once she was over Liz's ex she started flirting with Austin (he and I had broken up for a while last year) I found out she was flirting with him the day I had left for vacation. She claimed to be my friend. At this point I was so sick of her shit so I was done being her friend. Well she didn't even stop she went on to do the same thing to my acquaintance Hannah? WHO THE HELL JUST GOES AROUND HITTING ON THEIR "BEST FRIEND'S" EX'S?!?!?! Needless to say we aren't really friends anymore. That doesn't mean that we are mean to her we are all in the same girl scout troop (not Hannah) so we are nice to her. That's my life
Xoxo Megan

My Exhausted Life and The Drama That Goes With It

Soooo I know I haven't posted in a while and I am very sorry I've been utterly exhausted because I think I'm getting sick and my anemia is killing me. This will not stop me from posting though! So let me tell you the story of yesterday. This will take a little bit of a back story... I have this friend Sarah and she is adorable, I love her I really do. A few days back she looks at me in english and says "your boyfriend I'd date him." this made me laugh so hard so I respond with "That's funny but he loves me sooooo yeah" she then says "that's just cause he hasn't met me yet" which I thought was sooo funny. The next day she went on his facebook then his brother's facebook then his brother's fiance's facebook and then his step mom's facebook... STALKER but it was still funny. Austin, my boyfriend, thought that this was funny but creepy considering he doesn't actually know Sarah. Well yesterday she says to me "You should give me Austin's number but not tell him it's me that'd be funny" I replied with "Yeah no Sarah that's where I draw the line." and she laughed it off. I thought she had dropped it but then at lunch I got a text from Austin saying "Sarah sent me 64 texts in less than 5 min" ARE YOU FUCKING KIDDING ME!!! I had absolutely no idea where she got his number I didn't give it to her, I knew my friends who have Austin's number wouldn't give it to her I was pissed. So I texted Sarah "Sarah who the hell gave you Austin's number?" She tries to tell me she got it online when I know he doesn't have it on his facebook or anything. I found out she got it from one of my exfriends who got it out of my friends phone without him knowing. This exfriend is an EXfriend for a reason she's a total bitch who always tried to flirt with Austin in front of me and then tell me we were "so cute together". So now this bitch Ashley has Austin's number and I'm not happy because I thought I was done with all her shit... Turns out no, but I'll be fine if I have to I'll cut a bitch. Well that was yesterday for me. I promise I'll post more often.
xoxo Megan