The Perfect Guy

Everyone has a picture of their perfect guy or girl, the type of person you dream of meeting for years. Here's how I have always described my perfect guy. Tall, dark haired, sweet, kind of awkward and nerdy, loves marvel as much as I do, can make me laugh, and is just as sarcastic as I am. Well guys, I met him. He's literally everything I've ever dreamed of, we met because he will be attending the college in my hometown in the fall. His family knows mine so he stayed with us while at orientation. The thing is we've been getting their christmas cards for years and I always thought he was attractive, what I didn't know is that he's basically the coolest person ever. It was so fun having him here, we talked about Marvel and we seemed to have the same amount of sarcasm in the way we spoke. My sister had texted me after she left "OMG he's so precious" I replied "Haha I know!" she replied "marry him". When he left I added him on Facebook, eventually I messaged him. I was super nervous and worried he might not have liked me even though I thought we clicked really well. We chatted a bit on Facebook, I gave him my number, and we've be texting pretty much 24/7 ever since. I don't really know what to think completely, but right now I'm happier than I've ever been before so I think I'm just going to roll with it. So that's how I'm doing right now.
Xoxo Megan

Struggling

The past few months have been really hard for me, I have had an extremely hard time even just getting out of bed. I've felt so alone even though I'm not even close to being alone, I have so many friends who genuinely care about me I'm so lucky. I'm just trying to figure out what I want, and I have no idea how to do that. I'm just a kid but I feel like I should have everything figured out, but I don't! I had my first kiss recently I'm not talking to the guy anymore but he was really nice so I don't regret it. Something just keeps stopping me from being with anyone and I don't really know why, it's like the minute it gets serious I freak and run away. So I'm not really sure what I'm doing right now but I guess we'll have to figure it out... Thanks for listening.
Xoxo Megan

Prom

Prom is supposed to be a fun time with no worries but no not when you are hosting it. I am hosting and it sucks! Nobody tried to help me and when they didn't help me and when I made the plans I was told I made the wrong plans. Then they invite people that I specifically said I didn't want them there. Since they were the one who invited this girl I told my friend she had to be the one who tells her she isn't invited to sleepover, but my friend keeps saying she doesn't want to. You invited her she's your responsibility! Anyway so prom happened yesterday my dress looked gorgeous, but as we left the restaurant we ate at my zipper busted open so we made an emergency run to my friends house where we pinned it shut. We went to prom where I got to see basically all the guys I used to have "things" with there with their dates while I was all alone. When mine and my friends jam "Talk Dirty" came on one of my best girlfriends and I danced "dirty", so all the boys that didn't ask me missed out on seeing that. I got asked to slow dance by the guy who tried to ask me to homecoming this year the day after the guy I was dating at the time asked me, and we literally hadn't talked since he asked me, so that was kinda awkward. The hypnotist we had at post prom was AMAZING. And that's a brief synopsis of my prom!
Xoxo Megan

Me in the car before prom

My dress & hair

All the girls

Considering YouTube

Hello there, so I have been considering something for awhile and that is creating a YouTube channel. What do you guys think? Would you watch? I hope so. I've made and edited a video but I am afraid to upload I would love feedback!
Xoxo Megan

Sorry

This is me formally apologizing for not posting in forever. As well as other terrible things I have done.
I'm sorry if I ever called you a mean name.
I'm sorry if I ever made you feel bad about yourself.
I'm sorry if I ever made you worry.
I'm sorry if my depression has affected you.
I'm sorry if my self harm scared you.
I'm sorry if anything I've done has offended you.
I'm sorry if you hate this post but I need to get these out.
I'm sorry if I've ever turned you down.
I'm sorry if I've broken your heart.
I'm sorry that I can't be perfect.
I'm sorry if I've ever made you feel inadequate.
I'm sorry if I've made you feel uncomfortable.
I'm sorry that I can't control how shitty things turn out.
I'm sorry if we are close and I never told you I was depressed.
I'm sorry if you were ever scared to lose me.
I'm sorry if you feel like you did lose me.
I'm just sorry for anything I've ever done that has caused harm to any of you.
And I'm sorry this post isn't funny. Like this if you think I should start a youtube channel... I'm considering it...
xoxo Megan

Annoying things boys do

Let's talk about annoying things boys do

1. They sag their mother fucking pants! like what is that!!!!!! YOU AIN'T NO THUG

2. They complain about their fast metabolism in front of girls without one. If you're gonna do that I will punch you. Just shut up now.

3. They do that thing where they talk to you once and they say everything right so you fall like instantly for some reason! Like what? Teach me your mind tricks!

4. They say gross things all the time!!!! Stooppppppp I don't care about the perverted things you think about

5. They are always violent for no reason. Whaaaaa?

6. They get their man period and won't admit they are being pissy!

7. They ignore you around their friends thinking they look cool. News Flash you look like a douche

8. They just stop talking to you out of the blue right after calling you cute and shit. Assholes

9. They never think of cute shit to do on their own they always need help

10. Lastly they belch. Like I burp but they take it to another level of nasty.

Super Bowl!

 It's super bowl sunday bitches!!!! And I am pumped more for the food because my team isn't playing... Stupid bears not winning lol so yay food. Broncos Seahawks who are you rooting for???
Xoxo Megan