My Sister

So I have a sister only one and I'm pretty sure she thinks that she is the absolute center of the god forsaken universe. I love her I do but goddamn I cannot stand her! She is the biggest stereotype she's blonde, blue eyed, a sorority girl, a cheerleader. I can't stand it I'm nothing like her. Well the other day she backhanded me because I misted her with water my parents said nothing. It hurt like a son of a bitch and all I've wanted to do since is punch her in the face. If she was in my grade I would be no where near her ever. But she's my sister so I have to love her... I'm real sick of her "you're weird because you don't like to go out and be social" shit. I don't like to go out because of the huge amount of anxiety I have... Just because I'm not the same as you does not mean I am wrong. Fuck you if you think anyone is wrong because they are different. Well that's all for this time folks.
Xoxo Megan

Self Image and Self Harm

So as most of you know if you have read my previous posts that I used to self harm. It's in my past but I don't exactly love talking about it, it was a really hard time for me... If you currently self harm I want you to know that even if you think no one cares about you that I do and that you can email me if you need someone to talk to email me at
justyouraverageteengirl522@gmail.com
  (As I'm writing this very serious post I hear my Dad in the other room fart and tell my dog "ohhh heheh yes Daisy dats a fart, dats a real fart" I can't handle my family) Anyway self harm is not something to be taken lightly there are many girls at my school who self harm for attention and that makes me really upset being someone who did it because you feel like you need to feel something because you literally just feel empty like nothing matters and all you want to do is sleep. I have a very poor self image I don't think of myself as beautiful and I never have but I tell myself I'm beautiful and it sort of helps. I understand that it's difficult to see yourself as attractive but you are and someone is out there is looking for exactly what you have to offer. Please email me if you ever want to talk.
Xoxo Megan

Food

I AM SO GODDAMN HUNGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I BARELY FUCKING SLEPT LAST NIGHT!!!!!!!!! (pardon my language) Last night I couldn't sleep and I kept feeling freezing then sweating and I just can't. I don't think I slept for more than 3 minute intervals! I was falling asleep in spanish 3. I'm starving I wasn't hungry when I first got up so I didn't eat breakfast and now I'm in my school library eating candy.... It's not enough. Why am I not at home.... Sleeping. Sorry this post sucks.
Xoxo Megan

Drama

So let's talk some old drama of mine drama I don't have to really deal with but still drama. She was extremely selfish and all she seemed to care about was having a boyfriend. The beginning of sophomore year my friend Liz and her boyfriend had been broken up for a little while and they were friends but not really anyway, she claimed to be Liz's best friend was flirting with Liz's boyfriend like wtf girl code rule #1 the ex is always off limits!!! DUH! Then a few months later once she was over Liz's ex she started flirting with Austin (he and I had broken up for a while last year) I found out she was flirting with him the day I had left for vacation. She claimed to be my friend. At this point I was so sick of her shit so I was done being her friend. Well she didn't even stop she went on to do the same thing to my acquaintance Hannah? WHO THE HELL JUST GOES AROUND HITTING ON THEIR "BEST FRIEND'S" EX'S?!?!?! Needless to say we aren't really friends anymore. That doesn't mean that we are mean to her we are all in the same girl scout troop (not Hannah) so we are nice to her. That's my life
Xoxo Megan

Being Sick :(

Soooo I'm sick right now and yuck. I'm snotty and coughing and I feel like absolute shit. Like my life is kind of a shit storm right now... I think I'm going to stay home tomorrow because life... I'm so tired right now like how am I functioning... Sorry if this post totally sucks since I'm sick.. I don't understand how life happens like how do people actually function during times of sickness??? I don't know. That's all I have to say today. I'll post better soon
Xoxo Megan

My Family Plan & my current job

I work at an at home daycare and I love it. The kids are all so sweet and they love me so much! I love that I'm excited to go to work, and that I don't dread my job.  All I've wanted since I was little like kindergarten is to be a mom. When I was in kindergarten I told my mo that I wanted to have 100 babies and when she told me I couldn't that it wasn't possible I said "that's ok mommy I'll start now!" I was 5 years old and wanted to have 100 babies! As elementary school progressed I brought that number down to 12 and that number stuck for awhile. In middle school it went down to 6 and that number stuck all through middle school it was a good number 3 girls 3 boys that's what I wanted. I never really thought of names like some girls though. Some girls have names and how apart the kids will be, but I'm not like that. I have one name picked out I will be naming my first daughter Quinn Elizabeth after Quinn from my earlier post.  Now I'm a junior in high school and I want 4 kids and I think that's where it will stay because I only have one sister and I hate it I mean I love my sister but I wish I had more siblings. I hope to have 2 boys and 2 girls and I hope I will be making enough money to adopt 2 kids. That's my family plan. If it wasn't obvious my plan also includes a husband I really don't plan on doing all that on my own.
xoxo Megan